My Life Is Like Death

This past month has been challenging to say the least. School has been overwhelming; I did h/w non-stop for about a week right before Easter break, and I have a feeling I'm not going to get much sleep this week. Everything seems to be due at the same time. I'm actually behind on some papers, which is unlike me.
I need to make a decision soon about an internship for next year. One that I could possibly take would keep me in Redding for a couple years, but if I take a different one, I would be free to move home or go to grad school in Sac, or who knows what. So I've been thinking about that a lot lately. I'm starting to realize that the decisions I make now are going to impact the rest of my life. My life will look much different if I stay in Redding than what it might look like if I move to Sacramento. I need to make these decisions in the next couple weeks.
I also had to write a position paper on my view of women's roles in the church, home and ministry. I don't know what I think. It's quite difficult to write an opinion on something one is confused about. Thankfully that's over and my friends and I have debriefed. =)
I've also been challenged as to the church's role in the life of believers and outreach/the community. I'm realizing that church does not have one look, it does not follow a certain set of guidelines- or at least it shouldn't. It should look different for those in upper-class neighborhoods than it does in college communities or low-income areas. The values and experiences people have vary from place to place, and church should meet those needs in a unique way. I think. I just came up with this thought last night.
The head of the psych department, the prof I TA for told me last Wednesday that she is resigning. I did not see that coming at all; it really threw off my groove that day (understatement of the year). Not only does that mean we will be losing one of our best profs, I will not have a job. So now I have to look for a new job right before school ends. I think I have a good chance of getting one, but I don't want to be too confident and things fall through. I also need to look into other options in case it doesn't work out. Oh, I will still be a writing tutor, so that will help with money making. =)
I'm going home for the summer. I need a job. And I'm going to take summer classes. And I want to have FUN FUN FUN because this is most likely my last summer home, or at least my last real summer. I want to take a couple trips, but we'll see how that works.
So yeah. Stress has been high. I've been swamped. I feel like I might die from all I have to do. My writing today is quite cryptic. Sorry. I'm tired.
Ok, time for class.